Why? | A Thought | Personal Article

I can’t believe how people can change so much…The people you think they are, aren’t actually showing their true selves to you. They talk behind your backs, they say abominable things, they just rip your apart from the face of the Earth but when they come face to face, they are all smiles and rainbows…

Why? why the two-face? why not say whatever it is to our faces? Why not just say that you don’t like us and that we should just go away. Why do you backbite about us? say the things that aren’t true or mix falsehood with the truth?

What did we do wrong? did we hurt you? did we tell you something that wasn’t appropriate? no…all we did was stay with you so that you could feel safe. so that you wouldn’t be alone and isolated in this sudden outbreak that’s keeping us locked up in our homes.

Why do you do this to us? we trusted you so much. we thought you were good, we thought you were the nicest person and we thought that you loved us…but in the end, you turned your backs on us. All of you.

All you care about is yourselves and money. you used to respect us but when we lost everything, you decided to just throw us off the cliff and look at us as dead animals; or even worse…

thought so many good things about you. I trusted you, loved you with all my heart, and now…I just feel like I can’t trust anyone right now. Why do I have to go through this? Why is God testing me like this? Why did you change? or were you like this from before but now, your true colors are showing?

All of you…Why? Just because we’re another religion? just because we have different beliefs? different God? Why…?

It hurts.

It hurts so much…

I know I shouldn’t and don’t want to be too personal in this blog but I can’t help it…I must write this so that I can feel better. So that people will know that there are no more good and Merciful people here. That all we have is ourselves, God, and the closest people such as your parents and siblings.

you can’t trust anyone blindly these days. they will talk to you nicely at first but you will never know what goes around behind the scenes…it’s dirty, it’s disdainful and it’s not right. it’s unfair.

after all that we’ve gone through together…this is how they pay us back. with harsh words…words that they don’t know that we know what they said.

I might feel better after publishing this…I might not. But at least I will know that some (if not many) will read this. I don’t know, maybe I’m just looking for some comfort, for some love…maybe I’m just looking for some help but in the end, I hope this article will reach you so that you can know my thoughts and feelings right now.

Thank you for reading.

Don’t worry, I am okay.

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Things that make me Happy!

Hey neighbors, welcome back to my blog! 


So, I have a feeling that I might have wrote a post similar to this one, or I might not have…I’m confused.

Nonetheless, I’m gonna write it again because why not. Today, I am going to list things that make me happy! Even if I wrote about this topic before, the things that make me happy might have changed, right? 

As we grow, we sometimes begin to dislike things that we like and like the things we dislike. So if you ever stumble upon a similar post of mine, don’t forget to comment below and find the difference! (That’s fun, right?) 


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  • Amusement parks.
  • Malls.
  • Hot chocolate
  • Vlogs
  • Drama’s/Series/Movies
  • Kim Jongin
  • EXO
  • Anime
  • Family Time
  • Writing
  • Dancing
  • Eating Junk
  • Tea
  • Fanfictions
  • Dark chocolate
  • Kunafa (A Middle-Eastern Dessert) 
  • Mint chocolate chip
  • Coffee
  • Books
  • Bubbles
  • Long drives
  • Bakery goods
  • Sour punks
  • Hot showers
  • Workouts
  • Poetry
  • Beaches
  • Casual walks
  • lights (especially neon lights)
  • Cinnamon
  • Bananas
  • Disney
  • Drawing
  • Journaling
  • Kisses
  • Prayers
  • Lanterns

What makes you guys happy?
Let me know in the comments below~ 

Until then,

Peace neighbors,

See you in my next post~

I’M THE WRITER NEXT DOOR!

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Things that give me Hope

Sometimes, I lose creativity. I get all gloomy and irritated for no reason. I get all hyped up over little things and sometimes I just don’t know what I’m feeling or trying to feel.
But I’ve realized that its at that time, that seeing or understanding small things which we thought were trivial, gives us hope. It sparks our imagination, it banishes the darkness we were feeling and helps us smile, helps us become artistic and brings out the poet hidden within us.

Let me list a few things that give me hope when I’m going through that arduous stage.

Charity
Waterfalls
Praying
Panda’s
Kim Jongin
Small towns
Fields
Café’s
Forests
Stars
Dreams
Antique stores
Beaches
A good book
Rain
Gardens
Night life of cities
Northern lights
Lighthouses
Parks
Sound of rivers
Campfire
Aesthetic quotes and images.
Poetry
Letters
Typewriter
Red Moon
Autumn
Realizing that someday we’ll die
Cats
Talking to Grandma/Grandpa
Hot Chocolate with a pinch of cinnamon
Completing a task
Knowing that I have a goal to reach
Museums
Reading knowledgeable books
Libraries/Book stores
Patience
Art
Journaling
Comments and likes from my readers who support and love my works
Mint chocolate chip ice cream
Chocolates
Bucket Lists
Polaroid photos
Reading in the dark

These are a few things that I recall giving me a lot of hope, emotions and inspiration.
What are the things that give you hope?

Feel free to comment~ I would love to know about it.

Peace neighbors,

See you in my next post~

I’M THE WRITER NEXT DOOR!

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My Gratitude List

You don’t need to be grateful solely for the big things. I don’t know if you believe in God or not, but if you do, then you need to realize that he has created you and given you so much; sometimes better than other people. You’re alive and breathing and that’s what you can ever be grateful for. You’re not out there in a war, fearing the outcome, but you’re here, in your home or your office and reading this post because you just happened to stumble upon it.

Trust me, this is not a lecture, and I don’t actually have the right to lecture any of you, but this is just a friendly discussion, an inspiring and motivating thought that might or might not change the way you think about your life, or your future.

Being grateful is difficult for many people. Be it on getting a new job with less salary or getting a second-hand denim jacket from your cousin. But think about it, so many people don’t have a job, and even if they do, you’re getting paid more than they will ever do. So many people don’t have clothes to wear, but you’re getting an awesome jacket even though you didn’t ask for it. Why then can’t we appreciate the little things? Is it that hard to smile and be happy with what we have? Yes, we’re struggling, but after hardship, there’s always ease, isn’t there?

Sometimes, I myself get frustrated with the things I want, with the way I want things to be, but then somehow or someway I get reminded that no, you’re living your life fairly well and that right now what you have is what you must be grateful for. Life has its up’s and down’s, but if we aren’t satisfied with our lives now, then we won’t be in the future either. It’s going to ruin our life, and the next thing you know, you’re on your death bed, depressed and guilty because you didn’t enjoy the little moments or weren’t grateful with the things God had already bestowed on you. Again, this is not a lecture, just my thoughts.

So, what can you do to be grateful? To feel contented? To be always smiling and not worrying about tomorrow or next week?

Well, I don’t know if you’ll heed my words or not, but what you could do, and what I often do, is make a gratitude list. You could do it every day, or every week, or every month, but you should do it because in our busy lives and occupied minds, we forget what we’re truly missing. The tiny elements is what will make our lives better, and trust me, you won’t regret it. Furthermore, there’s no harm in making such a list is there? All you need is a pen, a paper, and some alone time and you’re good to go!

As for me, I’m always cheerful and elated because I value the smallest of things that happen to me, be it a kind comment on Instagram, or a smile from my mom.
Here is my gratitude list that gives me the strength to never give up, to keep thanking God for giving me such a life and to strive to keep it that way or make it even better.

  • Tea in the morning with brown bread and eggs.
  • Scrolling through Kim Jongin’s photos.
  • Flowers that sway with the wind.
  • The smell of my cat, Ginger.
  • Witnessing the sunrises and the sunsets.
  • The heavy rains that drench me, the darkness that surrounds and gives me the urge to drink hot chocolate or coffee.
  • Learning lessons from the mistakes that I’ve made.
  • The people on Social Media who make us laugh, who listen to our daily affairs and who are ever ready to stay awake and talk about useless stuff.
  • Bear hugs from my sister.
  • Watching Movies/Drama’s and playing games with family.
  • A family night out that’s always unplanned!
  • Hot showers while it’s raining outside.
  • Recalling our previous accomplishments; be it big or small.
  • Being healthy.
  • A home.
  • Having grandparents. A loving family.
  • Understanding that its no use stressing over our lives and that if we just wait patiently, everything will eventually fall into its places.
  • Eating chocolates.
  • Eating healthy, delicious food.
  • Watching the moon and the stars while your mind is completely free from all thoughts.
  • Getting mutual and financial support from your family whenever you need them.
  • Being able to help others; be It through writing, poetry, or just simple words.
  • Abundance love.
  • Abundance happiness.
  • Abundance faith.

What I need you guys to do now, is grab a book and a pen, or your laptop, sit down and write the things you’re thankful about, or things you truly appreciate in your day to day hectic life.
You’ll feel good and you’ll feel more content with the way you’re living. Perhaps, after making this list, you’ll get a goodnight’s sleep, at long last.

Let me know in the comments if you’ve ever made a gratitude list or not, and if not, promise me that you’ll make one right now after reading this post!

Peace neighbors,

See you next time~

I’M THE WRITER NEXT DOOR!

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A Letter From My Younger Self

From,

              You, but just a little younger.

So, I see that you’ve published a novel. Let me just congratulate you because you’ve made me so proud of myself. You’ve achieved what I strove to and yeah, it is thanks to me that you were able to ascend the first few steps to reach your ultimate dream, but still…You didn’t give up either and that’s all that matters in the end.

You’ve learned so much, you’ve evolved into a fine woman and your brain has developed so much lol, that I can’t even fathom how you managed to acquire such knowledge without even completing your high school.

You make me self-satisfied and seeing you brings tears to my eyes. You’re thanking me, but I thank you for continuing what I started and still moving on without stopping.

I have nothing more to say. And even if I did you already know what it might be. It will all be a bunch of Thank you’s, sorry’s and I love you’s for my mistakes, my triumphs and my gratification. 

Don’t give up, ever, okay?
If we do, our dream will only be just a dream.

Let’s always keep dream with open eyes.

*Hugs tightly*

 

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