I can’t believe how people can change so much…The people you think they are, aren’t actually showing their true selves to you. They talk behind your backs, they say abominable things, they just rip your apart from the face of the Earth but when they come face to face, they are all smiles and rainbows…
Why? why the two-face? why not say whatever it is to our faces? Why not just say that you don’t like us and that we should just go away. Why do you backbite about us? say the things that aren’t true or mix falsehood with the truth?
What did we do wrong? did we hurt you? did we tell you something that wasn’t appropriate? no…all we did was stay with you so that you could feel safe. so that you wouldn’t be alone and isolated in this sudden outbreak that’s keeping us locked up in our homes.
Why do you do this to us? we trusted you so much. we thought you were good, we thought you were the nicest person and we thought that you loved us…but in the end, you turned your backs on us. All of you.
All you care about is yourselves and money. you used to respect us but when we lost everything, you decided to just throw us off the cliff and look at us as dead animals; or even worse…
I thought so many good things about you. I trusted you, loved you with all my heart, and now…I just feel like I can’t trust anyone right now. Why do I have to go through this? Why is God testing me like this? Why did you change? or were you like this from before but now, your true colors are showing?
All of you…Why? Just because we’re another religion? just because we have different beliefs? different God? Why…?
It hurts so much…
I know I shouldn’t and don’t want to be too personal in this blog but I can’t help it…I must write this so that I can feel better. So that people will know that there are no more good and Merciful people here. That all we have is ourselves, God, and the closest people such as your parents and siblings.
you can’t trust anyone blindly these days. they will talk to you nicely at first but you will never know what goes around behind the scenes…it’s dirty, it’s disdainful and it’s not right. it’s unfair.
after all that we’ve gone through together…this is how they pay us back. with harsh words…words that they don’t know that we know what they said.
I might feel better after publishing this…I might not. But at least I will know that some (if not many) will read this. I don’t know, maybe I’m just looking for some comfort, for some love…maybe I’m just looking for some help but in the end, I hope this article will reach you so that you can know my thoughts and feelings right now.
Thank you for reading.
Don’t worry, I am okay.